THE GRACIOUS ROUSSE

Anonymous asked: are you happy right now? why/why not?

Right this second, yes. Today I went to Descanso Gardens with my group of friends from school and then got coffee with friends from church. My heart is full and continuously growing with love for these people. They get me on every level and I’m so blessed to have such supportive, thoughtful, and compassionate people in my life. Tomorrow, I’m leaving to go on a 5 day trip to Yosemite. I know that I will find peace and connection in the valley and I can’t wait to revel in its beauty with both body and soul. In one month, I’m moving to the school of my dreams. I’m starting fresh. The piles of shit that people and situations have dumped on me are being cleaned away. I will finally be in a place where my efforts will be recognized even if I do not succeed, where competition is not everything, where teachers and peers want to support one another. I will thrive. I. Will. Thrive. Without a single thought to the negativity left in my dust. 

I will not deny that I am also scared shitless. I’m moving to another state and leaving behind my friends and family. College will be really difficult at times and it has been a struggle preparing myself. I will not deny that I’m stressed. I have so much to do in so little time. I leave in a few weeks, but I have two months worth of shit to do. I will not deny that there are moments where I become a little overwhelmed, a little anxious, a little frustrated.

But damn. When I say that I’m on to bigger and better things, I believe myself. I don’t remember that last time that was true. So yeah, I’m pretty fucking happy. 

P.S. Thank you for asking! I rarely get messages, this was so sweet! I hope you have a lovely day, Anon! 

I went to Descanso Gardens today.

"At the very least, poetry and science are sisters.
But, more likely, they are the soul and the body,
sharing a single heart,
whispering arias to the universe,
waiting to hear it singing back."

- by Ashe Vernon (via latenightcornerstore)

(via rustedknees)

I smell fruity as fuck.